service engine soon
On the current property we are renting, buried deep in one the barns is a lawn mower that works 20% of the time with a blade attachment made for snow removal. Here in the Midwest, when the ground gets very cold, the earth tends to shift. This is a problem. Because in our situation, the winter has shifted a slab of cement in front of the door of the barn so that we cannot open the door to access this mower.
We have a very long driveway, and we have a great many drifts of snow blockading us from the road.
As you may have guessed, this leaves us with no way to remove the snow so we can easily make out way to work every morning.
My husband has spent roughly 1 hour and 1/2 a tank of gas the last few evenings driving one of our vehicles hap-haphazardly through the snowdrifts (with its blinking “service engine soon” light) to make tracks for his flimsy little car to make it through in the morning. Then he spent another 20 filling up said flimsy little car’s routinely deflating tires with air.
And sometimes… sometimes it feels like we just don’t fit the mold a smooth-functioning life. Like our life can be summed up to a puzzle with pieces that got sucked on by a toddler then lost under the couch for 8 months. And now we are doomed… doomed to function. Doomed to create a neat and perfectly finished picture.
Sometimes it feels like we are metaphorically my husband’s flimsy little car, and that our life-obstacles are the snow drifts in our driveway and we are just trying to make it through somehow… with a blinking “service engine soon” light and a flat tire.
Its a little scary how quickly the little things can build me up and tear me down. These little things, for me, metaphorically assemble the puzzle of our life; a finished picture that illustrates where we are. And when it doesn’t come together (which it often doesn’t), I begin to feel defeated. Sometimes depressed. Sometimes angry and like I am completing losing control of myself.
And sometimes I retaliate against our bad luck. I clear out the basement so our son has a place to ride his bike. I drive to the grocery store and buy ice cream for 3. I paint with my toddler. I stay home all day making actual meals and spending actual time with my family. I chose to win in the ways that I can.
Hopefully, with time, the pieces will come together and make sense.
Hopefully, with time, the earth will shift again so we can… you know… get into the barn.
Hopefully, with time, we will get a better grip on things. And when that happens, I sort of hope we miss the old puzzle – the assembled pictures that didn’t quite fit.
Warm Green Lentil Salad
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 medium yellow onion, finely diced
- 4 cloves garlic, very thinly sliced
- 2 medium carrots, very thinly sliced
- 1 celery stalk, very thinly sliced
- 1 cup green lentils
- 1 1/2 tablespoons Dijon mustard
- 4 teaspoons red wine vinegar
- 1 1/2 teaspoons kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon freshly-ground black pepper, plus more to taste
- 1/4 cup chopped Italian parsley or cilantro to top (optional)
- fried egg, to top (optional)
Put a kettle or a pot (containing about 4 cups water) on the stove and bring to a boil.
Meanwhile, heat the oil in a medium saucepan over medium heat until shimmering. Add onion and cook until soft and translucent, about 5 minutes. Stir in the garlic and cook for an additional minute. Fold in the carrots and celery.
Add the lentils to the saucepan and stir to coat with the onion mixture. Pour the boiling water into the pan and stop when the level is about ½-inch over the top of the lentils (should be roughly 3 1/2 cups of water). Bring back to a good boil, reduce the heat to low, cover the pot and cook the lentils for about 20 minutes. Stir in the mustard, vinegar, salt and pepper and cook an additional 10-15 minutes – or until lentils are tender but still slightly chewy.
Remove from the heat and let sit for ten minutes. Taste and season with additional salt and pepper.
Serve warm – with a lightly-fried egg and a sprinkling of parsley on top if you’d like. Leftovers can be covered and refrigerated for an additional 4-5 days.